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Random Thoughts About My World…

Journal

Category: Life

  • Life…

    certainly does get busy sometimes. I always have good intentions to keep up with things, but then real life gets in the way and I realize all of the stuff I wanted to do months after I’ve dropped it.

    Long story short, I “retired” at the end of January, and am finding what the balance of that life looks like, which has been interesting. And because it’s here, my grandson’s 2nd birthday is today, and we had him over to spend the night with Nonna and Papa D last night! Yay!

  • Not hnau…

    If you’ve ever read the “Space Trilogy” then you are familiar with the themes of humanity and the alignment of worship. This quote from “Out of the Silent Planet” has always been very poignant to me:

    “He had decided from the outset that he would be quite frank, for he now felt that it would be not hnau, and also that it would be unavailing, to do otherwise. They were astonished at what he had to tell them of human history—of war, slavery and prostitution. “It is because they have no Oyarsa,” said one of the pupils. “It is because every one of them wants to be a little Oyarsa himself,” said Augray. “They cannot help it,” said the old sorn. “There must be rule, yet how can creatures rule themselves? Beasts must be ruled by hnau and hnau by eldila and eldila by Maleldil. These creatures have no eldila. They are like one trying to lift himself by his own hair—or one trying to see over a whole country when he is on a level with it—like a female trying to beget young on herself.” — C.S. Lewis, “Out of the Silent Planet

  • What’s my desire?

    “Sin is not simply making bad choices or mistakes. Sin is having the desire in our hearts to do the will of the enemy of God.” — R.C Sproul

  • How long?

    How long will we continue to act in selfishness to make ourselves happy, when all it really does is harm those around us, those who love us? You can justify selfishness until the end of time, but in the end, selfishness has always been, and will always be about…self.

  • What we need…

    “…he knew in the core of his heart that he was not large enough to bear such a burden, even if such visions were not a mere cheat to betray him. The one small garden of a free gardener was all his need and due, not a garden swollen to a realm; his own hands to use, not the hands of others to command. ‘And anyway all these notions are only a trick, he said to himself.”” — Sam Gamgee, “The Return of the King” J.R.R. Tolkien

  • Hope

    “His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of the warrior; the LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.” Psalm 147:10-11

  • What is your life?

    “Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away.” James 4:14 LSB

  • House of Cards

    “God has not been trying an experiment on my faith or love in order to find out their quality. He knew it already. It was I who didn’t. In this trial He makes us occupy the dock, the witness box, and the bench all at once. He always knew that my temple was a house of cards. His only way of making me realize the fact was to knock it down.” — C. S. Lewis, “A Grief Observed”

  • Until

    Until our faith moves from transactional to relational, we will never experience the fullness of the love and care of God.

  • “Time just gets away from us…”

    The last line of the 2010 remake of the movie “True Grit” is much different than the original 1969 version. In the remake, Adult Mattie is recounting what has gone since the completion of her journey with Rooster Cogburn, and in a completely astonishing manner, she utters the words “Time just gets away from us…” as she is walking away from the family cemetery. I was so taken aback that I had to watch it several times, just letting that sink in.

    I just turned 62, and those words keep resounding in my head. I have 4 kids, one who is married with a beautiful grandson I get to see quite often, another who is about to be married, and two more who are well-established in this life, and who make me shake my head at how successful they are, despite my best efforts.

    I am attempting to be more purposeful these days, with both family AND friends, making sure I don’t have many chances to have regrets. I’m sure I will still have some from time to time, but I’d rather be deliberate in sharing life in a way that builds them up and brings glory to the Lord. Otherwise, time DOES just get away from you…